That's cancer with a little c.....

They say that journaling is good for the soul, so I've decided to step out of my "private ways" and be more transparent.  My hope is that while I'm finding that life is worth living, that others also will.  It seems so cliche to say "life is short - make the best of it", but no one knows this better than I...and it all started in November of 2007.

Finding that lump was the beginning of the end..or so I thought.  After tests were done and appointments made, here came that dreadful word...the "c" word.  While my head was still reeling the doctor would proceed to talk about surgery, chemo and radiation.  Being a follower of Christ, I'd like to say that I immediately felt God's presence, felt his hand on my life, but in all honesty I felt nothing but numb.  After all, how could this happen to me?  What about my family?  All the questions that run through your mind.

The surgery was done and now came the even harder part. Needing strength, courage and peace, I grew closer to God each day.  Of course my family and friends were so supportive and helpful during my treatments, and I took this time to do a lot of reflecting on my life. I began to be thankful for even the smallest of things...sunshine on your face, the smells in the air, the birds chirping, even my children arguing.  My moto became "I may have cancer, but cancer doesn't have me".

Constant scans became a way of life for me...they still are.  Fast forward to November 2010.  After finding something above my collarbone it was back to the doctor.  It was confirmed to be a tumor so more chemo and radiation as I was determined to be around for my family.  Unfortunately this did not work and currently I am considered Stage IV with current metastasis to my skin. They say my cancer is aggressive but I know the truth and the truth shall set you free..the God I serve is able. 

You see I may have cancer with a little c, but more importantly, I have Christ with a Big C...and that's all I really need.  So now you see why life is worth living !